Oh and by the way I'm totally screwed

[substitute]

I'm posting too much today but I did want to mention to the universe that my lab results are back and I *am* indeed doomed: glucose 192, high cholesterol, high bp, sugar in the urine, etc.

So I have to lose vast amounts of weight and probably take a little pill that makes me feel funny. Or die.

A few numbers on a piece of paper have me scared shitless. Which is probably what I needed.

You know it makes sense, don't even think about it
Life and death are just things you do when you're bored
Say fear's a man's best friend
Say fear's a man's best friend
Say fear's a man's best friend
You add it up it brings you down
--John Cale

Comments

Um.

[flipzagging.livejournal.com]

Totally not cool with the ignatz dying part of this journal. Very distressed and feeling a touch of panic myself.

(just talked to you online and panic somewhat subsiding)

for the sake of your millions of fans defining "or die" a bit more rigorously might help. Sounds like you are in for a year of rabbit food and sweating and then you probably will be okay...?

Re: Um.

[substitute.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but if I fuck it up I get to go on lots of meds and probably die early after a long painful disaster of a life. So my plan is not to fuck it up.

[predicate.livejournal.com]

Dude.

And then, "DUDE."

You're one of the 5 coolest people I've ever met. You introduced me to the joy of greeting strangers by tossing narcoleptic badgers at them. You're gonna be around for a long time, or me and the universe will have words.

Prayin' for you, and the whole deal.

--j

[frobisher.livejournal.com]

For what it's worth, I've had all kinds of bad numbers for years, and I'm not dead yet.

In fact, I had the realization that my parents (who've been around for quite a while now) haven't lived this long by being healthy, but by surviving being sick.

This isn't to tell you not to get on the ball about this, but more to tell you you shouldn't let it get to you while you do.