Oh and by the way I'm totally screwed

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I'm posting too much today but I did want to mention to the universe that my lab results are back and I *am* indeed doomed: glucose 192, high cholesterol, high bp, sugar in the urine, etc.

So I have to lose vast amounts of weight and probably take a little pill that makes me feel funny. Or die.

A few numbers on a piece of paper have me scared shitless. Which is probably what I needed.

You know it makes sense, don't even think about it
Life and death are just things you do when you're bored
Say fear's a man's best friend
Say fear's a man's best friend
Say fear's a man's best friend
You add it up it brings you down
--John Cale

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Re: eep eep

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Yeah, there's GAWRSH I'D LOVE TO FIT INTO MY PROM DRESS AGAIN MICKEY!!1! and then there's a set of numbers that says: change or die, you're at a fork in the road.

I'm shvitzing.

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Yeah, especially when diabetes got my grandfather back when I was about 7... I think he was only 65 or so when he died. =/ And I am shaped much much more like he was than my grandmother, lemme tell you.

You got any specific plans about what you're going to do yet? I've been doing pretty well on the exercising every day thing so far. Also cut out cola beverages and constant sugar influx. Hurp. I'm tired all the time though. Can't stand diet colas though. Oh well.

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Exercise; no sweets; less carbohydrates; more vegetables; panic; more exercise.

I think that covers the plan ;)

Oh, and panic.