(alone in a crowd)

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It was a breathtakingly gorgeous day today. Warm, flowers blooming everywhere, birds chirping, serious Spring Perfection.

I had my first EMDR session. It’s a very odd experience, similar to what I think hypnosis must be like. It’s hard to describe, but I can say it’s not bullshit. Something very odd is happening during the session. If I get a better handle on it I’ll try to describe it some time.

I’m not doing very well at work. Hard to get things done. I worry that I’ll get in trouble there.

My friends talk a lot about sex. Jokes about sex, stories about sex, stories about sexual relationships. It makes me feel left out, and I’m not sure how to deal with it. So I use humor, which is what I do to make uncomfortable things go away. We laughed, we were merry.

You’re a hard act to follow
Keeping me at arms’ length
Sapping my strength from a distance

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It was a short enough session ( < 1 hour ) that I didn't get that time telescoping thing, but afterwards I felt so odd. I couldn't decide whether I'd just had a good meal or been in a car accident.