alone and worthy of it
Sep. 14th, 2003 08:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
substituteWhat's worse than knowing your life is broken and won't be fixed? I'll tell you.
Today I was at D's and ran into a friend who just got out of an involuntary 72-hour hold at a mental hospital due to a suicide attempt, and who needs to restart her entire life over under appalling conditions.
And then I ran into a friend I have a useless crush on. And for the rest of the day all I could think about was how unfortunate I was in my desperately impossible desires for unreachable partners, and how pathetic a creature I was, and how I would never be happy. Etc., etc., poor little me.
God knows my life problems aren't small, and I have a right to some self pity, especially considering the near-perfect failure right of any attempt I've had to find a woman who likes me.
BUT FOR CHRISSAKES how could I be so self-absorbed to make that so important in the face of someone else's disastrous miserable mess?
If there was a "What Shakespeare character are you?" quiz I think I would be Bottom. Certainly not worthy of Hamlet status.
Today I was at D's and ran into a friend who just got out of an involuntary 72-hour hold at a mental hospital due to a suicide attempt, and who needs to restart her entire life over under appalling conditions.
And then I ran into a friend I have a useless crush on. And for the rest of the day all I could think about was how unfortunate I was in my desperately impossible desires for unreachable partners, and how pathetic a creature I was, and how I would never be happy. Etc., etc., poor little me.
God knows my life problems aren't small, and I have a right to some self pity, especially considering the near-perfect failure right of any attempt I've had to find a woman who likes me.
BUT FOR CHRISSAKES how could I be so self-absorbed to make that so important in the face of someone else's disastrous miserable mess?
If there was a "What Shakespeare character are you?" quiz I think I would be Bottom. Certainly not worthy of Hamlet status.
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Date: 2003-09-15 06:45 am (UTC)You cant be all sad and rejected and hurt! You just can't.
I don't mean because you're not ALLOWED to because there are other people with worse problems. If you take that idea too far then no human being on earth would ever feel entitled to feeling hurt.
I mean you CAN'T be all sad and rejected and such because I've never met you but you can still make me happy with your pictures and links and things and the walking mouse icon who makes me hear whistling in my head when I see it. Like a really really old Itchy and Scratchy cartoon.
Plus I liked Midsummer Night's Dream way more than Hamlet and Bottom is awesome. He's just misundstood, that's all. Hamlet's a tool.