alone and worthy of it
Sep. 14th, 2003 08:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
substituteWhat's worse than knowing your life is broken and won't be fixed? I'll tell you.
Today I was at D's and ran into a friend who just got out of an involuntary 72-hour hold at a mental hospital due to a suicide attempt, and who needs to restart her entire life over under appalling conditions.
And then I ran into a friend I have a useless crush on. And for the rest of the day all I could think about was how unfortunate I was in my desperately impossible desires for unreachable partners, and how pathetic a creature I was, and how I would never be happy. Etc., etc., poor little me.
God knows my life problems aren't small, and I have a right to some self pity, especially considering the near-perfect failure right of any attempt I've had to find a woman who likes me.
BUT FOR CHRISSAKES how could I be so self-absorbed to make that so important in the face of someone else's disastrous miserable mess?
If there was a "What Shakespeare character are you?" quiz I think I would be Bottom. Certainly not worthy of Hamlet status.
Today I was at D's and ran into a friend who just got out of an involuntary 72-hour hold at a mental hospital due to a suicide attempt, and who needs to restart her entire life over under appalling conditions.
And then I ran into a friend I have a useless crush on. And for the rest of the day all I could think about was how unfortunate I was in my desperately impossible desires for unreachable partners, and how pathetic a creature I was, and how I would never be happy. Etc., etc., poor little me.
God knows my life problems aren't small, and I have a right to some self pity, especially considering the near-perfect failure right of any attempt I've had to find a woman who likes me.
BUT FOR CHRISSAKES how could I be so self-absorbed to make that so important in the face of someone else's disastrous miserable mess?
If there was a "What Shakespeare character are you?" quiz I think I would be Bottom. Certainly not worthy of Hamlet status.
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Date: 2003-09-14 11:11 pm (UTC)you know what? it isn't a competition. you don't arbitrarily lose the right to feel upset about something that your life is lacking just because you think someone else has it worse than you do. the fact that you even bother to consider something that that shows what a good person you are.
remember....one person's disastrous mess is another person's walk in the park. we all deal with our personal inadequacies, shortcomings, and tribulations in different ways. don't belittle your own simply because you think them lesser than someone elses. they are yours, and deserve whatever modicum of respect and attention you see fit to grant them.
you are entirely too good of a person to be this hard on yourself. it's true.