mesmeric neurobonkular electrozapulation report

Brain Lady seems to have figured out a regimen for the neurofeedback that does not cause me to veer between flailing depressive self-hatred and near-paranoiac rage. This is a good thing.

I'm also experiencing a more even temperament generally. The same problems are there, but the amplitude is reduced, as are the swings. In simpler terms: I'm still upset about a lot of things and have some pessimistic opinions, but I'm no longer staring at the wall thinking about them for 9 hours straight.

I'm also sleeping between 12 and 14 hours a night, which is both therapeutically deemed to be "good" and pleasurable.

So far my rating for neurofeedback as a therapy is a conditional positive. I've got improvements that are good and important, but getting there was disagreeable in the extreme.

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Whoa. Blast from the past.

I was reminded of someone today I hadn't thought about in years. When I was a yuffie in L.A., maybe 1991 or so, I met this woman through friends. She was a little younger than me, maybe 21 to my 26, and she was a poet. She'd had some local success getting reading gigs, putting out a chapbook etc. We talked on the phone a bit and then hung out some, went to dinner. She appeared to lose interest in me as a friend as soon as it was clear we weren't going to be dating.

She was attractive in a number of ways: hyperintelligent, book-crazy, talkative. I was kind of sad to see her fade away. She was also a 21-year-old poet, so self-obsessed and nutty. I remember talking to her about the UCI writing program, because my dad was just retiring from teaching in it.

So I hadn't thought about her forever, and then the subject of the dreariness of rural Illinois came up, which is where she was from. And I googled her. Holy cats, she's a professor in England now! She also has some poetry online at the Shearsman site here and also here.

Still cute too. :) Glad she made a living out of it. The soybean harvest didn't sound fun.

LIGHTS ON FOR SAFETY

Seen on the road just now:

Five year old volvo with bumper stickers: Pink Floyd, Van Halen, The Beatles, Led Zeppelin... and TurboJugend?.

Also, a full-sized skull mounted on the trunk lid about a foot in front of the windshield.

Also: license plate XDANKX