because it is bitter and because it is my link

1. The best thing about this video of an improvised dance party is the music. Really, that's the best part. (big mpeg, directory of all of them at this link).
   
   
2. I do go on about my failures as an Attempted Boyfriend, but some people fail with a style and power that amazes even me. Screencap is a 400K png here if he gets a moment of clarity and takes it down.

The preceding links were brought to you by the deep and abiding need for schadenfreude and by the neologism: "milfetoast".

courtesy pbd

xtreme_pr0k's motorpsycho nightmare is now the bestest pseudo despair.com successory yet!

MERRY BAUNCHMAS, EVERYONE!

1. FAMOUS CALGARIANS. School projects done about places remote to me are funny. I do not know why. Also, "Dr. Thomas Henry Blow".
   
   
2. I also like art by nuts and weirdos, like this exhibition of obsessive drawing.
   
   
3. Let's all collect RADIOACTIVE CONSUMER PRODUCTS! (Thanks, Vark!
   
   
4. Kiss me deadly, goober. Way to confirm every allergy maniac's fears, start a wave of urban legends, and cause ADDITIONAL fear of sex among teens! Girls, I am processed in a facility that also processes peanuts. In case you're curious.
   
   
5. They finally figured out how bees do it. The next step will be investigation of the educated fleas.
   
   
6. In other Mad Science News, the mysterious cartoon spring noises that issue from the depths of the ocean have finally been identified. (via pharyngula).
   
   
7. Who is the Father of Lies? What is Madison Avenue? Yet another proof of my rule that "Cyber" must always be replaced with "Bozo" is "Cyber Monday". Courtesy the slacktivist.

can you...

YES! YES! YEESSSSSSS

o/~ do you hear what I hear o/~

note: Audio is NSFW at points.

off to the phrenologist

Despite a couple of nasty troughs, it was still relatively good brain weather since Wednesday. My LJ despair fits are accurate about certain parts of the cycle. And the situation is pretty bad on a few levels. But at least the last week or so has been about 80% unhappily stable and only 20% Pray For Death. I can do that ratio for a few months for a big enough payoff.

I am concerned about alienating people, though. Raw despair isn't exactly "selling yourself", nor is flailing anger. It's what I've got, and it's true, and I can't really avoid communicating it. That's not who I am, though. It's who I'm crawling out of, with whatever strength I can dig up.

No doubt part of my sense that I'm losing friends is due to an understandable flinch away from someone who's having a hard time and not hiding it.

Good thing the cat doesn't care, eh?

New genre: LARPMetal

Remember the link I posted yesterday to the fursuit people "dancing" kind of listlessly to endless EuroOperaticSynthMetal? A guy from that band made the greatest rock video ever made in the history of rock videos that have been made. Ladies and gentlemen, I preset Luca Turilli's "Ancient Forest of Elves".

This is the dorkiest fucking thing I've ever seen. And I know my dorks.