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substitute) wrote2005-08-09 12:29 am
substitute) wrote2005-08-09 12:29 am
the end of the rainbow
If dealing with the reality of my life at midpoint feels like this, I would like my delusions back right away.
Never in my wildest nightmares did I think I'd be doing this badly this late in life, or have lost so much that can't be regained, or have such a bleak future to swallow.
I want to deny who I am, but I cannot.
This is Hell.
Never in my wildest nightmares did I think I'd be doing this badly this late in life, or have lost so much that can't be regained, or have such a bleak future to swallow.
I want to deny who I am, but I cannot.
This is Hell.
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